Friday, August 31, 2007
To Love A Woman
ENRIQUE:I don't know what it is, but she drives me crazy!
I don't know what she does, but she drives me wild!
I know that she can let me be the man that I want to be,
Or she can leave me helpless as a child.
LIONEL:
I don't know how it is, but she has the power.
She can make me laugh when I want to cry.
She tells me that I'm in control, but I know it's just a lie.
TOGETHER:
And I don't mind, no!
Will she love you tomorrow like she loves you today?
She can keep your heart guessing,
But she's yours if she stays.
That's what if feels like to love a woman.
To love a Woman.
ENRIQUE:
When you're lookin' in her eyes you can see forever.
(forever)
You're captured by the beauty of her soul.
(oh, yea)
LIONEL:
You know you're never gonna find a woman like this again,
TOGETHER:
So don't let go. (don't let go!)
Will she love you tomorrow like she loves you today?
She can keep your heart guessing,
But she's yours if she stays.
And that's what if feels like to love a woman.
Oh, to love a Woman.
Oh, she can make your day.
Oh, she can take it all away (take it all away)
Oh, whether it is wrong or right
you know that it in the end, you'd do it all again
To love a woman.
Just to love a woman.
mmm - hhhmmm
(short music)
oh, you know
Yes I know, Yes I know
Will she love you tomorrow like she loves you today? (when she loves you)
She can keep your heart guessing,
But she's yours if she stays. (who knows if she'll stay?)
And that's what if feels like (oh, I wanna say)
That's what it feels like (what it feels like)
And that's what it feels like to love a woman.
To love a Woman.
Oh yea, just to love a woman
p/s : Thanks for the song Patricia,thanks for the nite too... nice fire works we watched together.Im gonna miss u.
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Thursday, August 30, 2007
Merdeka Merdeka Merdeka..
Yeah at last im Merdeka from my darkside world because its already over.Let it happen because nothing help me,my dream still go on.. work hard for it.WCG and Asian Cyber Games is coming..let have fun with it :DHappy Merdeka to MALAYSIA buat kali yang ke-50 ...pedebabom! piak piak kena slap.lol.
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Tuesday,28 August 2007
Makan tak kenyang,mandi tak basah,hati berdebar² menanti seseorang yang ku sayangi menjalankan tugasan yang amat besar bagi aku,i will waiting,see and the important part is how she did this job..ya Allah u will always be my guide forever,i love u so much. :) syukur alhamdulillah."DEAR kejujuran dan keikhlasan,sudikah kau memberi kedua² itu keatas dirinya,ya Allah berikan hambamu yang lemah itu petunjuk dan aku sebagai penyampainya."
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Monday, August 27, 2007
As I grow older I've learned that...
..you cannot make someone love you.Let it go even my heart said no but what else can i do by now.In this kind of situation she still cannot forget and leave and let someone out there be far away.Telling me without follow the next step wont make my heart happy enough you,everthing i want is to see u do it,seems like u havent change for what i want..and im not the one will find my dream love girl after i successful enough insyAllah,im finding someone that be with me even im in a good or bad situation.Sorry u just dream if u said u wanna wait for me.I just dowant to hold anything and promises with anybody cause it there gonna be alot of "SOMETHING" behind me.I knew half of you sayang,but u cannot change it.. till today is last from me to u,anggap sahaja la im already gone from your life dead from your world.Good Bye my dear truely love.
Let the 26th of August and "The Amor - RBD" song be our saksi,this is really2 sweet memories ever in mylife i done before.I will always remember and im already dead of it.
"As I grow older I've learned that you cannot make someone love you" - Rezza
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Rbd - Tu Amor lyrics
Mi amor I’m not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here’s the place to start
Chorus:
Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor
Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I’ll feel for all time
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how
I need you
[ Tu Amor lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
With words you understand
Words that get through to your soul
Words that will let you know
Chorus:
Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor
Bridge:
You’re the one that
I need in my arms
Believe me these words
I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me
Chorus:
Tu Amor, I will always be
Tu Amor, means the world to me
Esteras siempre en mi corazon
You’re the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor
"..fullstop"
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Sunday, August 26, 2007
i cannot be the one..
im sorry so much to u bebeh,i cannot be the one u find and need inside your life.We just in the different way,i knew that u respect your mum decision but for me its gonna hurt me alot until dunno when,dear someone out there why dont u just leave us and her family to see us together,ur talking crap nigga!i cannot see u again because im gonna sad,in the end all the story just clear in my mind,im sorry if before this im doing bad to you.Please take care of yourself,always remember me in your memories and doing a good things for your own self.. thinking twice before u make decision,i just cannot go true this..im really2 sad and crying while typing this.All the best my sweet memories of bebeh.
dear love please dont ask me to that again because it will always be wrong for me.Just keep it just like a dream when im sleeping to fall in that field again.Why we cannot be in the same way while im trying to help u to make decision but we r same.I just need to forget about u from mylife, you be strong,pray to Allah.
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Friday, August 24, 2007
Follow The Flow
yeah! im broken again,its pain..painful enough,its hurt..hurtful enough! thanks you for breaking my dream n heart again,someone..if u want to change,change it now.. change it when we r together,that is the big mistake.But too bad,i knew everythings about u,without any words from your mouth..i just dunno why Allah showing me all this,maybe just want me to open my mind and eyes.CHANGE YOUR BAD ATTITUDE enough girl!ur doing in the wrong way..change it and dont let me to see u again, and i wont accept your apology!ur already dead inside my life and i dowant to know who r u already..ur really2 break my heart nicely..this is u called life? yar..u can say this is life.. but we can choose which life we wanted to choose rite ? in a bad way or good way.. u choose it!
Im fucking emo until nobody can stop it.. i need a time to heal myself,i just dream that ur my illusion came to mylife for a while.. and now ur gone,dont ask me why i did this..u follow the flow and u take the damage!
Study > Gaming > Family ..im gonna follow this flow for the moment,when i can fly Ya Allah,i want to change mylife style.. travel myself.Hopefully everything i plan will doing in the good way,makbulkan doa hamba mu ini Ya Allah..pimpim la aku kejalan yang benar.Amin.
Today is Friday,leader of the day! be strong to reach to goal..! Close the story and heart of girl inside my life.. u all just know how to break my heart nicely :)
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Thursday, August 23, 2007
never forget where u came from kid
hey ya.. what a bad day,bad news that i cannot believe.Oh well that all is reality,video and pics prove its enough,syukur alhamdulillah Allah showed to me something,i need to be strong.Hey you there,back to the correct way,sedar lah bahawa nafsu bukan segalanya2..kejujuran and keikhlas adalah penting.Im now try to show that im good,im just follow the flow.I just cannot believe u done like that before,perbuatan yang terkutuk.. i will always hope and pray that u will be to the correct way,bertaubat dan berubah.amin
I just cannot accept your appology,apologize to dear god Allah.I hope 1 day u will be change all your bad attitude my dear friend.amin.
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Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Gaming Mode
Hello people,gaming mode is back to my life.. haha 50% of gaming mode,10% of college,10% of boredfuck life... 30% more dunno where missing.. haha,WCG is coming..and for the updated news,the registration is closed,hope the for NILAI and WANGSA MAJU qualifier, all the best to Natural Ones members,good luck friends.. all the best30% of broken heart and hurtful enough! oh just act like everything just a dream,be cool wei!..and how about the roadshow?hopefully getting the chance to enter and earn some money.. and out of boredom eh? whatever....dunno dont care! wishes list wishes list :(
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Sunday, August 19, 2007
its enough,Natural Ones is back.
Yeah dude,today is the day we "Natural Ones" to perform something hehe..nice try to us for 1st our performance haha..but luck is not with us,lose by 1 round!yeah keep it up guys and training smart for the final,show something that we are not the BOTS HAHAAHHA.. friction style "eh bots,eh bapak kau.. joke?"and yeah its enough you,im getting hurtful enough.. im not that easy to accept your apology,what u done to me is totally enough for me to take the time to heal my self..find yourself your happy way,take care
NaturaL Ones * ._.Yezriq ...hope some luck,play with the fully consistant!
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Saturday, August 18, 2007
everything gonna be ok
r u gonna be okay? yes im gonna be okay hehehehe..ok tak ok i still need to face it lah.. lets talk about today,huh wanted to visit the air carnival at Malacca started from Fri - Sunday..but i dont think so i can make it,just not felling to drive to that far.. dunno the mood is gone,lets talk about something gaming n heart.Why GAMING? because it was part of my life too,since i was in secondary im started to playing online and lan games,haha until now both of them already stucked inside my heart and what im trying to do is when im down games makes my heart..just to be that cause no one else can fix it.Huh but year by year im changed,getting drunk and smokes alot.. this is not the real me :( im getting wrost,even i knew i need to change but im still in the lowest part to make ke strong.. and what i hope is i could do all my plan in good way for me and my family.
Ok im sux,talking about gaming...today is totally tired,getting hardcore training and some dry run for my team,r we gonna show something special on the day?depends on luck and our own skill,guys try our best to get the top5!no bullshit to make it happen rite?yeah im feel like my skills getting better,awp? oh joke but its real.. hahah syok sendiri sekejap,kawan2 thanks for the support!try our best la yeeeeeeeeee :]
Oh trying to be happy outside is easy,but the internal is always on my mind..its happen not in the time,will happen anytime :( huh just tell to myself everything is a dream,why this could be happen to me again,what a sad and broken inside..just wanted to get heal from the old broken int the end just a dream, :( im always unlucky to do that..so we just go on with single life and simple life..IM BROKEN AGAIN,why do u choose me to be your victim?just to show to someone that ur more caring on him than me ? huh i guess i can read your mind even u havent tell me anything yet.. what a shame,no need to be lie for what u trying for your own good better than keep it secret and will heart me..thanks to you once again,and congrats for the convocation.I just can smell the view from far,and we just born to be friend..jokes each other is better than getting sad and hampa.Nvm im always keep it as a sweet memories in mylife..im learning something new,be happy with your life!
NATURALONES - Yezriq with a broken heart,let the heart feel the pain but not the dream! dear dream i hope u could make my life happy until the end of my life..i want to fly far away from here and start a new life.Not with anyone but my family.. yes i do!
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Friday, August 17, 2007
learn about your body
This is a very good article. Not only about the hot water after your meal, but about heart attacks. The Chinese and Japanese drink hot tea with their meals, not cold water, maybe it is time we adopt their drinking habit while eating.
For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you. It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion. Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine . Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer . It is best to drink hot soup or hot water/tea after a meal. A serious note about heart attacks - You should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting. Be aware of intense pain in the jaw line. You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms. 60% of people who have a heart attack while they are asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let's be careful and be aware. The more we know, the better chance we could survive. A cardiologist says if everyone who reads this message sends it to 10 people, you can be sure that we'll save at least one life. Read this & Send to a friend. It could save a life. So, please be a true friend and send this article to all your friends you care about.
5th and 16th is passed..september is coming,make my day beautiful not fool.. hooooyeah!
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Thursday, August 16, 2007
16th of 2o.O7
16th of 2007 :: P-assion I-ntelligent L-eadership O-bedience T-oughness,the date burn more of my spirit,PILOT!..can i do it? be confident on yourself because everything cames from your heart.Be patient :)
and yeah i got the instict that 1 day i can get the schorlaship from some airlines,eh dont trust much about that,just my instict..what ever happen just smile and try do the best for my own self,dear future and dream i will always try to holding both of u tight in my life.. would u like to be mine forever and ever and also no one will break the promise..would u?please tell me yes because i got nobody else to trust.Either me or them fully with jokes...that is me.
Blame myself is the way to improve your own attitude than blame others,try to solve every problem on my self without no one helps.Work hard rezza,u will be someone 1 day,"Killer Instict" :]
p/s : this is the date to burn more my spirit,nobody will let me down.. cita-cita harus diteruskan :)
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Monday, August 13, 2007
tears
tears moving and i there with my smiling..what a sad and boring day,be patient rezza. :)
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
Gloomy Sunday
Oh godamnit! i swear today is the damn fucking bored day in my life,i felt so fucking lonely and empty and i dunno why it happen on me.The only reason maybe,my happiness is gone for few weeks ago..Let it happen,hadapi dengan senyuman :]The story begin by early afternoon i woke up for my last exam paper,huh im worried about the exam,oh well i thanks god..everything kinda ok and in control..syukur alhamdulillah.Done my paper for few hour and straight went to ss2 PJ walk around to watch the WCG qualifier,oh ya alot of gamers and its end around 1800.. when the time im on the way back to shah alam,huh the feeling was really unexpected,the only i can say is let it happen and go,hapadi dengan senyuman :) even i knew im broken enough! thanks once again,eh my mistake ok!.We just not in the same way,u cannot follow my style and i cannot follow yours too,and the final answer is breakup from me and the 1st time im asked for it.Yeah grew up more dude!
Swwttttttttttttttttttt my mind not in control enough,from evening until the early night i was confused on myself..its totally different.My heart told me im sad maybe ? huh lucky few friends invited me to join futsal,wow its for 2hours.. and syukur alhamdulillah im enjoyed! thanks guys.. im sweat alot,tired!
Everythings happen make me be more alert and learn from the mistake.And i guess its not the correct time for me to thinks about girl enough for now and ever?i dare to live alone or with my parents.Dear mum and dad i will try my best to take care of both of you.. pray for my dream to be reality.
Gloomy Sunday
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"Sadly one Sunday, I waited and waited
With flowers in my arms, for the grief I'd created
I waited 'til dreams like my heart were all broken
The flowers were all dead and the words were unspoken
The grief that I knew was beyond all consoling
The beat of my heart was a bell that was tolling
Saddest of Sundays.
Then came the Sunday when you came to find me
They brought me to church and I left you behind me
My eyes would not see what I wanted to love me
The earth and the flowers are forever above me
The bell tolled for me and the wind whispered 'never'
But you I have loved and I bless you forever
Last of all Sundays."
Known as the "Hungarian suicide song"
the lyrics are Desmond Carter translation,
I think it's more powerful then Sam M. Lewis optimistic version.
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That Sunday was gloomy.
I'm hoping for some better days.
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Saturday, August 11, 2007
The CO PILOT..
THE CO-PILOT
I am the copilot. I sit on the right.
It's up to me to be quick and bright;
I never talk back for I have regrets,
But I have to remember what the Captain forgets.
I make out the Flight Plan and study the weather,
Pull up the gear, stand by to feather;
Make out the mail forms and do the reporting,
And fly the old crate while the Captain is courting.
I take the readings, adjust the power,
Put on the heaters when we're in a shower;
Tell him where we are on the darkest night,
And do all the bookwork without any light.
I call for my Captain and buy him cokes;
I always laugh at his corny jokes,
And once in awhile when his landings are rusty
I always come through with, "By gosh it's gusty!"
All in all I'm a general stooge,
As I sit on the right of the man I call "Scrooge";
I guess you think that is past understanding,
But maybe some day he will give me a landing.
By Keith Murray
P/s : u makes me smile :] oh ya.. im broken and hurtful enough! dear my golden dream please dont break my heart again.. ur the one i really2 need in this world..without u and my family my life is nothing..i dowant to be sad again :'(
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Friday, August 10, 2007
(Verse 1)
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you loved me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
(Verse 2)
I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with.
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again.
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate.
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
(Verse 3)
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"
(Chorus)
Hate me today.
Hate me tomorrow.
Hate me for all the things i didn't do for you.
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you.
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Thursday, August 9, 2007
Internal Feeling...
...there is nobody knows the feeling,even im always let u know but the answer is the same is "nothing happen" from u... haha love is funny,and nobody will understand me also.. come on lah if u feel that nothing happen on you,mean something wrong on u..something wrong mean maybe the feeling on both of u still there.U cannot forget of him? and the same problem btw him on u ? hahaha its good way to both of u to get back..let me sacrifier my love just to look u happy with the one u really² love..let me do my little respect on him since he cannot do that to me ? yeah dear world, and dad..in this world we will met alot of different kind of human,sometimes is special sometimes is awesome and many more.
I think im doing the great decision,i dowant it happen until 10years we already together because its gonna hurt me more alot,maybe u dunno how hurt am i when both of u still keep contact and talking about "your own world"..come on the simple thing also u cannot do for me and how we want to life together ? or u think im just your partner for a while when u need someone around when he is already gone.What will happen when he already working over here.. this is the funny part,its gonna be more RANCAK yeah!believe it, gonna happen..we will see that,my instict told me that :)
Dear love i think im gonna stop u here start from a week ago from loving anyone..because im the one that "As I grow older I've learned that you cannot make someone love you" ..close the diary of love in my life.Prepare for glory and pride to reach the "DREAM"!all the best to my own self.
Everything im learn today it will teach me be more strong in the future.Yeah im hurt again.Ya Allah kau lindungilah dirinya daripada kejahatan dunia kerana aku tidak dapat melakukan terbaik dan memahami dirinya..ketemukanlah dia dengan seseorang yang benar2 memahami diri,ampuni dosa hamba mu ini ya Allah.
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Thursday, August 2, 2007
the most thing that i hate,but i need to face it..
Oh it happen again and again,and today is the day..life is funny.Be strong to reach my goal.. please please i dowant it happen and meet any girl again that can killing me softly because im the one that always like to be serious.. huh im crazy but that is me.I dowant it happen but why she dowant to sacrifier it for me, ME ? oh im still nothing please remember that... i love me.Fullstop not question mark ok! Love is nothing when u have nothing but it will be something when u have something? isit true yoooo.Bebeh why la u cannot sacrifier it for me,why just u do that and forget about him..? Best friend oh Best friend....im getting sad and sad again.. Thank you so much.
am i still young to be serious and fall in love deeply.. but why im always do that ? HUH wtf.Everytime when im falling in love i just hope that she is the last for me but im still wrong and didnt get the answer.Stop thinking about that and let it go..
As I grow older I've learned that you cannot make someone love you."
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Wednesday, August 1, 2007
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
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Oh tidak bermakna lagi bagi diriku,setiap kali ku bertanya itu lah jawapannya..sukar untuk digambarkan tapi itu lah dia realiti kehidupan,aku sayang dirimu kerana didalam hati dan jiwa..tapi aku silap memberikan sepenuhnya kepada mu.Mungkin dimasa itu kau berada didalam keadaan sendiri,dan aku orang yang memberi kegembiraan,tetapi ku silap ianya hanyalah sementara.Tidak mahu aku mengambarkan kepahitan ini dimasa akan datang,aku tidak sanggup berkongsi kasih sayang bersama "best friend" bagi mu.Biarlah aku menghadapi kepahitan kesengsaraan buat masa ini bukanya keraguaan lagi dimasa hadapan,bagimu tidak seberapa..tapi bagi ku ianya amat menyakitkan,pernah kau terfikir seketika apabila ianya berlaku didalam diri mu.. tiada siapa yang meminta,mungkin kita hanya ditakdirkan hanya seketika untuk bermesra,berkawan buat selamanya..aku terima segalanya dengan hati yang terbuka walaupun sedih untuk meninggalkan mu sayang.Aku hanya insan yang lemah tidak dapat menerima dirimu sebegitu.Dia ialah pilihan hidupmu yang terbaik,dan yakinkan dirinya sebaik mungkin..perasaan tidak boleh dia buat mainan..
Sampai disini sahaja cinta kita wahai teman yang kuharapkan untuk menemani hidup aku,tapi dikesampaian.Yang terbaik hanyalah dirinya untuk dirimu..perasaannya mendalam masih ada didalam dirinya..yakinkan dia wahai sayang,kamu berdua ditakdirkan untuk hidup bersama,biarlah aku melangkah jauh sekarang daripada aku menunggu dengan penuh penyeksaan.."Ya Allah kuatkan semangat hambamu ini".
Aku berdoa agar dia milikmu senantiasa,tanpa kau bersedih lagi.Yakinkan dirinya,aku sanggup berkorban demi kamu berdua,berkorban demi kawan yang ku sayangi yang tidak siapa tahu.Biarlah kesakitan ini rahsia didalam diriku.Semoga kau dan dia dapat bertemu dah bersama hingga ke akhir hayat.
Aku bukan untuk mu..be strong to my own self.