Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Neverdream but it happen...
I never dream to have you,but in the last without a dream i lost you.I never forget to love you even for a second,minute,day and month.Every single of mylife just to remember everything about you,ur my everythings and something to my life.Posted by paopao at 1:21 AM
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Monday, April 16, 2007
Good Job KAOSIAN
We did again,we win the tittle again..but not same like last time.Only 1 of the teams won the competion.Sorry guys i did my best,but we lose to our own Team..and i still feel disapointed because i want to win the match but we failed.Happy for KAOS,nice try to KAOS - REBIRTH,EXTREME and JETSTREAM,we try our best on June.Yestarday i feel im not feeling very well,all of my friends keep asking what happen to me and i just said nothing and everything is okay.Its happen since the morning before i moved to Subang Parade,im missing someone so much and i could beat the feeling.The mood is gone for nothing and i dunno why this happen to me for the day i should be happy,even after the match i was cry and sad for the lose,thanks to Sosej to accompany me and chill me up,i just cannot handle the situation,1 + 1 situation on myself..my hurt crashed to much.
Actually everything happen last 2 nite before the final day of PVP competion,i checked my myspace blog and i saw something touched over there,tears.Oh im still down down and down.
Posted by paopao at 8:26 PM
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Sunday, April 15, 2007
Who am i ?
How could i falling in love with you last time ? how come i can believe to my own self to loving someone ? how come and how could i accept it.. im not the one to do that.. and im start craping again..nothing to worry,i know im the one who bring the problme.. bittersweet oh bittersweet.. word oh word,why r u leave me?Posted by paopao at 3:36 AM
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Saturday, April 14, 2007
Honestly..
From the honest heart every single part of my life,nothing much im thinking about,im thinking alot about you my dear Patricia Goh,my dream ambiation to join the flying academy,together happy with you in every single of my life next..day by day i try to be stronger and stronger,but i cant..im the weak person,my spirit of loves to you hard to erase..but the time and i dunno whats the another things makes me cannot be together ever.I can remember the word whatever happen,happen to a reason,but im weak to go on with it,until today ur still the one special inside my heart and my important life.Just hope 1 day there is a little bit of me still inside your life to thinking about me.I will find 1 fine and special day,i will make sure and promise to myself to lay down and ask for apologize in fornt of you.I knew im wrong doing the stupid things,but did u know if we not in this situation,are we can still meet each other? why then end of our story is the sadness memory,bittersweet of you and me will always in my mind forever,nobody special i treat in this world,its only you because i saw future and happyness inside your eyes and mind.. but im not the leader to guide together with u forever for now..and let say 1 day we still cannot be together,i just wait and give up until the day u getting married with each other!i dunno whether your love to me last time is your true love or not..every single minute and day i handle my self to be honest with you.. and why when this things happen u cannot take it serious and why i make this to u ? maybe im just a childish thinking about stupid plan..oh i dunno until when i will wrote like this over here,no where else i can go and do like this..
Or maybe were just from a different religion and race,oh rezza your taste is too high to dream about girl..let me be what i can be,not to say im loyal..but i just say the truth but no one can hear to me..when u doing something wrong and someone just take it easy u should admit yes ur wrong and ur bad person..the 1st true love in my life is gone and i just can be with her for a few hours and day,and she leave me alot of bittersweet for mylife..tears and sad is always with you rezza,how could i be stronger without a guidance.Love make my life better?oh enough for now and forever..everyone is the same.
Just leave some special note if ur read this;
This I must confess
I guess I still need you
I feel I have to tell you this again
Yes I still want you
Oh these words I did not plan
Posted by paopao at 4:04 AM
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Life Oh Life..
oh yeah.. 2moro might be my 1st class at 1700 until 1900.. wow its kinda late,i will be late for WOE yeah guys...Start today i will be busy with class,everydays is class.Something to do this weekand,PVP Event By Gameflier and im taking part again,can i will be something like last year again? Hmm.. try my best,and hope i will be enjoy and happy for awhile.Tired and stress thinking about love and i dunno why so hard to forget about it.For the truth,true love is everything.. but im just a pieces of shit.. cermin diri ok?Good Luck KAOSIAN,GoodLuck to my teammate KAOS.Rebirth..Enjoy the game and have fun.
Posted by paopao at 4:14 PM
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Friday, April 6, 2007
Today is different than another days
yeah its totally different today,i get drunk like a mad.I never do this before in my life,but for sure,i done this for a reason...when i remember something and someone important in my life ever but nth can help it.Its stupid but nothing can stop me,thai club is the devil ask me for the chivas drink? ..nobody fault,its my own self..walk like a stupid,shouting like a dog that is me...yeah at last i knew who that those people drunk.What ever happen i still remember about u,about everything and the most important for my life is you and my ambition.I miss her so much,but nothing can help me.. we're not in the list to be together,let the feeling and sadness be with me ever,and the best happy life with you ever.Everything is my fault like what u told me.I admit it everything eventho i cannot.But nothing will help it rite,im always be the loser and the unlucky,its okay if im unlucky to have someone special for my heart for ever,but just give me a chance to be someone better to catch and be the pilot,its sound like from dream to be reality.
Im sorry mama and papa for this,i knew im not suppose to drunk...but nothing can stop me again.Im really2 sorry!
Im missing my dear Goh Patricia Yit so much,for the honest and only dream on sleeping can be nice for a while for me to meet her and see her face.Have a nice day everyone.im sorry everyone..im not the best to avoid something that ilegal things.The love and feeling will be always around me,pray it forever and ever for me so that i wont flirt with another else,and i wont be more useless than this.Everythings is called life, and what ever happened,life must goes on.
p/s : Chivas owns me,and 1st time in my life i get drunk and overdose until getting mad like hell..oh this is new bastard life!