Wednesday, November 29, 2006
random and missing
....wake up from slept,and she is the 1st thing out from my mind.. im so sad,i cannot take this anymore,i need your help my dear god ALLAH.Love is blind..wish you can come back to me,why this kind of thing happen to me,why i got no chance to hold someone until the end of mylife..i need you!Hope something miracle side to me :( dun go away my true love,u should give me a chance ,everyone is not perfect in this world..i cannot be alone anymore,my soul is broken,my heart is hurting...
P/S : Happy Birthday Bobby
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Friday, November 24, 2006
Life
Anything happens life must goes on,every fated comes from god.. i believe on that.Even my heart still fucking hurt and sick,i need to wake up and fight with the reality...just wondering and glad why im not moving to australia for the cadet pilot course even my dad ask me to go,and i just blame myself its because of someone that i love,maybe the fate for me to fly is in malaysia academys i guess..just smile to chill up myself.Nuthing much to do,new life just go on..sleep > college > online/study > sleep.. no more enjoy life...moody with broken soul,hurting like going to die soon.Tomorow some CEL event at Low Yat Plaza, and im going since shinobi's ask to join them for BattleField 2 compy.. layan je lah! hehe..and at evening i might going to szb Subang Airport for Avition Fair,hope somthing intresting over there..
The flame never dies because the commmitment never ends,Passion..dun give up Mr Aviator.
You will know that you love someone when you want him/her to be happy. Even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.Loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with that someone, because sometimes Fate plays a fool on us and we are not meant to be together. But still, there is love between us! -- Happy to see her happy with someone,just pray for her happiness, and my soul already broken for 2nd times, give up and nomore for it.
She's the lift when I have weight. The thrust when there is drag. -- Broken soul.
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Wednesday, November 22, 2006
DND
The heart is fucking HURT and SICK! friends DND me..i need to be alone,the day after the day..keep smiling and chill up by myself,i know im down and i need to stand up back by my own self..the heart is totally pain and hurt,and i know and believe only god know what happen to me know..i love u so much ALLAH S.W.T,guide and holding me to the right place that i want to be,hope i can forgive the hurting asap,but not to forget! i just smile to myself because i know something will happen to me soon,dunno isit good or bad again..whatever happen,happen for a reason..life my goes on! to someone thanks for hurting me..may you will always happy and take a good care,i just pray and may good will take care about u.
I will make sure that my heart will not for anyone,until the correct day will come!Dreaming with a broken heart!
p/s : PS3,TV and aircond is coming soon!! heaven, room sweet room! study work online.. DND!
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Monday, November 20, 2006
The Dream to be One of The Aviator will never end!
Good Morning Morning and Morning again..im felling better now,maybe because enough of sleep.Hoop and Yoyo make me happy also yo! and dont forget about someone has msg me last nite ask me to be ok,ya hopefully i will be ok soon! whatever i do my heart still broken.. BlaBla with a broken Heart..When life fails you, don't you have that special one person that keeps you hanging in there? And if you don't, maybe you're that person for someone else. So, when the world turns its back on you and you're ready to surrender, please just remember that you're not just fighting for yourself ... but for that someone too, because once you're gone nothing is keeping them from disappearing too! Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe although they've been betrayed, to those who still love although they've been hurt before... I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk and realize that they are gone. All you see in front of you is a stranger with just a known name! All of our young lives we search for someone to love, someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if somewhere and somehow there is someone searching for us...
Today new semesta has started,5 new subject was detected.Math and Pengajian Islam for today,im totally tired..from 9am until 5pm,1st thing i done after reach home sleep hahaha.Something still around in my mind,it was HER..even this evening after woke up from sleep the 1st thing i was thinking is HER again...its farking hard to believe it but now was is a reality for me.What i can do now is just pray to god.
Journey to be the aviator has begin,hehehe..i just confident to myself.Smilling with a broken heart..i just smile to everything was happen because i know,what ever happen,happen for a reason.Thanks god i will never giveup on the journey.I need to be strong even someone that always support me was not here,once i down i need to wake up it alone,thanks for everything..She teach me alot.
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Sunday, November 19, 2006
Dreaming with broken heart
You will know that you love someone when you want him/her to be happy. Even if that means you're not a part of their happiness.Loving someone doesn't mean you have to be with that someone, because sometimes Fate plays a fool on us and we are not meant to be together. But still, there is love between us!keletihan tahap maxima! iTAP
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Thursday, November 16, 2006
EMOlution
Bravo Bravo Bravo..40% of my room has been done, hahaha..try to complete it 1 by 1..huh new pc is running,too bad..im pissed off with the monitor @@ WTF how come cannot using 100hz..huh 2moro i to go low yat back, change to more better!
Suddenly my superduper tired has been gone!i think because im sitting in fornt of the computer hahah! day after day..im still searching and waiting something news from HER!where'd you go..remember keep in touch,hope so she knew that i already have a own blog!..2min remaining to playing CS online, gotha!
Sad happy Sad Happy..the song If You're Not The One by Daniel Beddingfeild so farking sad dude! =.= EMOlution,huh scold my parents just now! mama im sorry..i din mean it, too EMOlution.. LOL $@^*($@$^@*($^@$^ ..argh i need a chill pill! LOL JK im still ok..
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Ku Katakan Dengan Indah
The tittle taken from Peter Pan - Ku Katakan Dengan Indah~*Inside each and everyone of you is untapped strength of will, of spirit, of heart. The kind of strength that will not flinch in the face of adversity. You have only to remember your purpose, the vision that brought you to earth the vision that will take you to the stars and to the depths of the oceans and up the stairway of the soul. Great strength of will resides within you, waiting for expression.- Dan Millman
hummmmm i must have had some dream yesterday because when i got up the first thing when i opened my eyes and took in a deep breath i smiled, coz i knew that its going to be a good day. I guess the thing that puts people apart is that the way you view your day and your life is important not just to worry constantly about things or think to much. I apologize if im misleading some of you forgive me i just got up and im still super blur...
I have a enough slept last nite, wow 14hour of sleep :D ..wake up for college,scared of my exam result.. oh thanks god its a good result from you..i just smiled alone again.too bad someone still not around and listen to me again,huh past is past..and i just feel like a dream,coz i already familiar with this kind of situation even last time she still with me...study smart for next semesta,guide me god!i will always ask for your help.
I've come to believe that all my past failure pains and frustration and anger were actually laying the foundation for the understandings that i have created the new level of living that i enjoy, the future that would make me a strong human being
At last my plan success! new pc has been done...thanks BOB for your help,thanks dad for your money :P Have a nice day! haihz my mind still thiking about HER,wat she doing rite now..how was HER today..huh i dunno why this happen?must be something wrong with me DUDE! and YES i still care about HER!
"Forever is not today, not tomorrow or a century that will come, but a lifetime. My pain does not come from the realization of you being out of reach, but from your misleading words that made me believe you weren't, Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before finding the right one, so that when we finally find the right one, we will know how to be grateful! The real contest is always between what you've done and what you're capable of doing. You measure yourself against yourself and nobody else. Do what you can, with what you have, where you are. Believe in yourself, dreams do come true!
Listening to Peter Pan Tracks, Tak Bisakah kau menungguku..
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Monday, November 13, 2006
stressing myself...
Day 2 in this blog,nothing much im doing today..just finished my time at Pyramid for TMNUT Broadband Fiesta 2006,Opss sorry for call NUT..because the event is kinda cheap to compare it since the sponsorship from big company HAHAHA.Im still stressing myself on everything happen to me this month, moody and sadness still with me..By the way i thanks to god for let myteam won something today.So sad,the feeling..i missing someone and she is not here yet,it might be more happy if she around here together with me..just admit it again, just a dream for me.
Goodbye pyramid,next plan is Snoopy's open house at Wangsa Mijan...eating and lepaking with friends,i eat alot sia :D ..btw thanks to Snoopy for invite me..."Hoi where is my part time salary lah" Opss some friend keep comment on my new hair, and ask me to dont to moody and stress on anything happen to me last week..thanks to snoopy's to remember me to be confident after this,this is the really really big mistake i has done in mylife,someone that i love and need in mylife just gone..around 11 we moving back from there to Shah Alam,on the way back sudden my feeling remind me about something, that im suppose to remind back, everythings is over..and i just cannot lie myself to do that,the feeling just too deep.This is called LIFe..at last i chill myself and said something ..hope 1 day i will be with u back together forever and ever.
Oh yeah something happy coming tomorow, its CLASS..time to study.Go rezza..mission still incomplete..Good Luck to me,dun be lazy mr aviatorexa,Good Nite...ayacaramba why dun we fly :)
Haihz just check my old phone, i on it back..too many memories inside there..the sms,its really important to me..when i need her and she is not around,i just read back the sms that i saved since 4years ago..i just feel better and smile alone.Feel that our love is unique,but now everything is just memory and 1 more thing i hope someone there still remember about me when the song from Howie Day - Collide on air.My love still there for u...
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
Kisah Terindah by Warna
Ku sesali dirimumengapa tak di sisiku
saat ini aku rindu
ku sesali mengapa dia
yang berhak atas mencinta
sesungguhnya kutak rela
Andai engkau ada di sini
kukan slalu menjaga dan mencintamu
andai kau tercipta untukku
kan kurangkai kisah terindah
hanya untukmu
ku sesali diriku
mengapa tak di sisimu
saat ini aku rindu
oh haruskah ku menunggu
sampai waktu kan berpihak kepadaku
demi cintaku
..Welcome to my new blog,nuthing much to write rite now,currently mood is down.I feel like this is the new place for me to realize my tension and current mood.Just pick up to put this lyric song by Warna,Kisah Terindah..the meaning if deepful and meaningful,i just remember, anything happen..happen for a reason ..for 21 years i alive,this is the 1st time i feel something sweet called "LOVE".She cried at my shoulder and kiss me for the 1st and last.Thanks to god for let me to be with her for a few hours,i will never ever forget the best thing i never had in mylife before.In sweet memory to be with my Lovely girl Goh "Patricia" Yit.I'm braving myself to face my greatest fear of finding my own hapiness
Im sorry if im hurting any visitor here..