Monday, March 26, 2007
this is the place again..
for me to write and say everything.. and few minute ago i just saw something and makes my heart stop for a while and thinking forever,something should be wrong or something should be write,oh ya im sick again.Fever loves me,maybe too much hardcore shisha and smokes now days.Im sorry papa and mama,im too stress of my own life and i still cannot take it easy and let it go.Back to the "something" that i spoke just now,its something like quote.. and it sound like this "People say that if you truly love someone, you should let them go. But if you let them go, what makes you think that HE or SHE will come back?"
Just my 2 cents,nothing else to be jelous rite now..the pain,broken and everything i will always show here,nothing to secret..and too bad,nomore coco in my life to talked with,i miss you my dear cat coco,ur my best friend ever who understand to be with me when i need someone.Wish when everything is ok,i will spend more time with your spesis,even i know dog is better but too bad i cannot have it.
"People say that if you truly love someone, you should let them go. But if you let them go, what makes you think that HE or SHE will come back?"
...and i just cannot take it anymore with loves,oh ya Ragnarok Online Championship is coming again,can champion "paopao" can me the mircale day again?i will try my best to beat the enemy of KAOS,for our guild and friendship mr bobo!i will never lie to u :P train hard ya.. bring it on again! let me be the loser in loves but not in any games? that is gamer i guess!
i still got no spirit and nice to do so,just target end of this year will be my best year since i was alive for 22years,and i dowant anything bad happen again amoing my birthday until dec,and what i really2 wish is..i can be with my family happy together live with my parents, and i can join the flying academy.Papa n mama pray for me always ya.
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Wednesday, March 21, 2007
The Saints Are Coming
Love.A word.
You use.
No deep meanings,
You use.
As a game,
You use.
For a reason,
You use.
Like you know,
Its meaning.
Its feeling,
Its existence.
Love.
A word.
So deeply wasted.
You made me mad. I hope you die. But if you do. I will cry. I really want you to go away. But at the same time. I want you to stay. Our friendship is falling slowly apart. With some tears and a broken heart. But the tears are now dry. Never again will i cry. For the heart you have split. It only hurt a little bit. The pain i will never again feel. Each day i slowly heal.
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
simple life
Calm, yet sure I stand by and watch,Seemingly unsocial, uncaring and untrusting.
Seemingly quick to say I don't like,
Not quick to give my trust.
I just stand back and watch-
Watch them laugh and tell jokes,
Watch them make fun and gossip.
Yes, I'm sure, my trust no easily gained,
So I stand back and watch.
Stay away from me.
wish i can forget the past as soon as possible.closed the diary in my life.
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Monday, March 19, 2007
Turned On and Off
turned on and off situation in my life,sometimes the situation brings me down and sometimes it just in the middle of happiness life.And i dunno whats going on next,be passion is only the word out from my mouth to make my own self better,passionate passionate and passionate until the day come? and im not sure its correct or wrong.unlucky is always with me,always and always..unlucky being down on myself and wake up back to catch the dreams and still dunno when i can start it.One of the dream is already down,1 more to go.Yestarday AirAsia promote thier cadet pilot to everyone in Malaysia at The Star paper,what can i do just read and thiking.Should i try? hopeless and unlucky will result soon again i guess.Why last time my brain not thinking about the future,isit because of my brains already know something? oh i dunno about that,i hope for everything i have done and doing soon i will get better life soon.
and yeah i closed the diary of love in my life.i dowant to be hurtful anymore.Its enough for anything done before and i dowant to feel the risk anymore because i and im always unlucky and random.Be prepare to continue the journey.Thanks to zuki,khaless and ady for the support to continue my life in the aviation world, hope 1 day i will be like you all.. Airbus and Boeing driver.
turned it on and turned off..being random and im kissing the phone and screen monitor to show how much i miss someone.And yes im the stupid.
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
This is the way...
this the way to do before sleep,drop some crap things...hahaha,oh gosh i fall asleep in fornt of the computer for a few minute.. huh to tired lvling my ragnarok char ? ahah stupid fuck..oh no im so fucking hungry and tired,tired of thinking and working what else,wei someone please help me.. bring me to the new world.. being sux stay around in my own land.sob sob.. broken in everything is being hurt and hard to do another things u know ? in another word i should say fuck off i guess...im really tired,but dunno until when i will stay like this...i need to pray more,but hell no.. still cannot,im still under the @$&@$()@$&@)$&) situation..why ya ?drunk a stupid basrtard beer last month.. rofl jokes!ah lets continue sleep.. with hungry mode and tired..please help me,bring me to the new era of rezza tun! oh shit i cannot stay with this situation even day by day i want to change it.. but hell no, my heart and mind is for her ? im stupid ? anything whatever..good nite.just cannot believe it happen for 2nd time in my live.. bullshit of love.. being loyal is just like nothing,ah girls dont talk so much ya!money owns everythings..
This I must confess
I guess I still need you
I feel I have to tell you this again
Yes I still want you
Oh these words I did not plan
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Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Oh,idk..
something just passed in my mind,something like funny but who knows it would be reallity to me,1 day?idk..its about my career that i really2 loves so much since i was young,but too bad nothing helps me last time.. but now thanks to god,day by day i get some news for aviation.Thanks to all forumer,flydamnit.com and captain lim webbie :)....back to the story,i something just passed is about career and her.If 1 day i leave Malaysia,i will regret whole my life and cry like a babies needed a milk from mum,for my own self because someone that i really2 loves is here,its her and my family.But family still can arrange it,bring my family to the new world.Thats what i want to do for my own and my family good.But her,nobody can help and change it,too bad for me..finding someone to share my life with is gone,the dreams already broken.
Ah sound so stupid and lame rite?but i told the truth..this all of things passed like a rollercoaster..and im a dreamer?hopefully 1 day everythings going to be ok and all right.
Congrats to Ruby's for score her SPM,10A1..take a good care for leaving to Germany soon,hope u wont forget about me here.
Im sorry to everyone,her and friends..pray for me to reach my goal and 1 day i will be happy to be with all of u guys.If im falling in the half way,please forgive and bless me,hurtful;sampah sarap.
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Monday, March 12, 2007
Welcome aboard: Malaysia's women pilots are flying high
actually nothing to post much here,early evening after i woke up from sleep im reading new from "Sunday People" and i saw something intresting about pilot,And to continue the stroy here some of them is my friends i was and like w0w,girls in a pilot uniform pilot,Airasia really really gave some chance to show girl power! PowerPuff Girls babeh? and i still remember about the miss thailand ;) ...respect all of you girls.
Five high-flying young women tell RACHAEL PHILIP that their wish to be a pilot is grounded with a profound passion for flying.
THE next time you board a plane, you may hear a woman's voice over the PA system telling you to sit back and enjoy the flight.
Yes, that will be the pilot. Surprised? Don't be as there are a good handful of female first officers with AirAsia, currently the only local carrier to have women as pilots.
It's good timing too. Malaysia is 50 years into her nationhood. Although women pilots have served in the cargo industry and a good number have made headlines in the air force, there have been none in the commercial sector.
The Royal Malaysian Air Force welcomed its first batch of three women pilots some 20 years ago. Of the trio, only one went on to become a fighter pilot.
By opening its doors to women, AirAsia has helped women here to realise their lofty dreams.
ILI FARINI MOHD IZAM
Her first solo was unforgettable. It was just after Hari Raya two years ago, recalls Ili Farini Mohd Izam, 21. The sun was beating down hard as she walked to the aircraft.
She describes that first landing as OK. "The feeling was one of exhilaration and excitement. They say it's all about having an aptitude for it. You feel the land rushing up to you and you react accordingly."
As junior first officer, Ili flies one way to a destination under a captain. On the return journey, she takes over support work such as communicating with the air traffic controller, radio communications and paper work.
"Paper work is very important. We write down the flight plan, voyage report and keep time. In case if the automation fails, you can always fall back on raw data," she says.
Ili, whose father was a former aircraft engineer and mother a flight steward turned flight safety instructor, thinks the move to recruit women pilots in Malaysia is long overdue.
"There should be more women commercial pilots. We have women already in the airforce. That, I think, is tougher and more admirable."
ILYANA NAZLI SHAH
Ilyana Nazli Shah thought nothing about joining the boys in flying school in Malacca. Determined to be a pilot, like her father, she enrolled in the Malaysian Flying Academy in 2004 straight after school. She was one of the two girls in a class on 15 students.
"The boys think we get it easier with the examiners. I think they are just jealous we passed," she says jokingly.
Ilyana has flown to most destinations that AirAsia flies to including Macau, East Malaysia, Phuket and Hanoi.
NOORHAFIZAH MOHD IDRUS
This former Tunku Kursiah College student was two years into her multimedia degree course in University Kebangsaan Malaysia when a letter arrived telling her to register herself at the Malaysian Flying Academy in Malacca. Noorhafizah Mohd Idrus was overjoyed.It was not an easy two years for her. First Hafizah, 23, had to convince her engineer mother and headmaster father that she really was not interested in medicine.
She had dreamt of flying since she was a child but despite sending in applications, she was beginning to think that no airline would be interested in training woman pilots. Then came THE LETTER from AirAsia.
Hafizah completed her training in January last year and has clocked in 700 hours of flying. It will be another three years before she becomes senior first pilot.
"You have to be at least 26 to be a senior first pilot and you must have completed more than 1,500 hours of flying." Pilot can only do 100 hours in 28 days and cannot exceed 1,000 hours in a year.
Ironically, though Hafizah loves flying, she does not enjoy travelling, preferring instead to stay home with a book.
CHANANPORN ROSJAN
Two years ago, she won a tiara that came with the title Miss Thailand Universe. Today Chananporn Rosjan, 24, has exchanged it for a pilot's hat and "the coolest job on earth"."It's great that your feet are not stuck to the ground. The cockpit makes a unique office. My view is the sky," says the lanky beauty.
"As a passenger you are stuck with a little window. I love looking at the sky... it brings on serenity and calmness," she says with a New Yorker's accent. Besides Thai and English, Rosjan also speaks German and Italian.
She studied at the Francis Lewis High School in the United States, where her guardian was general consulate. Profoundly inspired by the handful of women astronauts in the state, she and her friends harboured similar ambitions.
Then she returned home to study electrical engineering at Sirinhorn International Institute of Technology at Thammasat University and she won the beauty title.
But nothing could detract her from her dream of flying. "My mother was a stewardess. I grew up knowing many pilots. It's a profession I respect a lot. Plus the pay is very handsome," she says.
Rosjan flies for AirAsia Thailand. When talking about her uniform which includes a pair of bulky, dull black shoes, the former beauty queen is not fazed. "I don't see how a pair of heels will come in handy in the cockpit," she says cheekily.
ONG SOOK MIN
At six years of age, Ong Sook Min flew in a Fokker 50. Only a thin curtain separated the cockpit from the passengers and she caught glimpses of the pilot at the controls. Ong, 31, recalls: "I told my mother that one day I would be in there."She used to mount her walkman and radio on the wall and pretend they were cockpit instruments.
However, her father thought flying was too dangerous and wanted her to run the family business making Japanese casserole dishes. So upon graduating in electrical and computer systems engineering, she returned home from Melbourne and worked as a production and QC manager in her father's company. After seven years she quit. "I didn't really like business anyway."
Then her mother saw an AirAsia advertisement for cabin crew and urged her to apply.
Ong did and was accepted. It wasn't quite the same thing as being a pilot though it was some compensation.
Then she heard about a cadet pilot training programme offered by the airline and on her first day as a stewardess, she handed in her application.
Meanwhile, her father had a change of heart too. "He said I was flying as a cabin crew anyway," she says.
Ong has clocked in 600 hours already. "I love the feeling up there. The whole sky is yours," she enthuses.
p/s : respect all of you.
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Friday, March 9, 2007
she's so vulnerable
Nuthing much to share with u all over here,everything is simple life over here.Final exams just finished yestarday,and i did my best and the last paper is awesome paper.Hopefully i will get the best result even i know i study all of subject in last minute,what to do..i cannot concentrate at all since from my sem started,what a bad day in my life..something unexpected things happen during my 1st for college,im suppose not to mention about it again?Everything happen i just take it as a experience in my life,im sorry to everybody if my attitude is bad for you all,day by day i will try to be better, and now im slowly wake up.I knew im wrong,and i dunno that will make u changed your mind so fast..every human have thier own instinct.Im just a human that always hard to expect the unexpected things,maybe that is my weakness.
Two more long sem and one short sem to go,dear Allah..give me a chance to fight with my dream,dont let me down for so long..i knew im weak.Whatever happen,i will try my best to fight to be one of the aviators in this world,and i knew no one special behind there will support me even i what it happen,but i cannot get it.
Talk alot about the pass,everyday is boring and lonely day..computer is my best buddy ever,dont try to break our relantionship you nigga! HAHA..well at last i got something to do,downloaded alot of movies and series,HEROES! and few days ago i just watched movie called "The LakeHouse" and its touched,no wonder someone asking me to watch it before.What to do,last time im not a movies lover..the end of the story is meaningful,thinking it back.
Back to the title today,one of the nice songs i heard before..lets enjoy listening together.
Vulnerable
Everywhere I look I see her smile
Her absent-minded eyes
And she has kept me wondering for so long
How this thing could go wrong.
It seems to me that we are both the same
Playing the same game
But as darkness falls this true love falls apart
Into a riddle of her heart.
She's so vulnerable, like china in my hands
She's so vulnerable and I don't understand
I could never hurt the one I love
She's all I've got
But she's so vulnerable
Oh so vulnerable.
Days like these no one should be alone
No heart should hide away
Her touch is gently conquering my mind
There's nothing words can say.
She's coloured all the secrets of my soul
I've whispered all my dreams
But just as nighttime falls this vision falls apart
Into a riddle of her heart, yea.
She's so vulnerable, like china in my hands
She's so vulnerable and I don't understand
I could never hurt someone I love
She's all I've got
But she's so vulnerable
Oh so vulnerable.
Don't hide your eyes...
vulnerable is the title and the lyric is meaningful ever for me,part of the meaning is playing in my mind..
Everywhere I look I see her smile
Her absent-minded eyes
...its best for me to forget everything,that is what i want..but Everywhere I look I see her smile,Her absent-minded eyes but my heart and mind cannot accept it,what im suppose to do? ...im really² sorry to her if my feeling is still there..