Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Cinta Oh Cinta
Today i found something intresting about "Cinta" and after i read some magazine early this morning,after thinking and looks back to me,its quite true.. the meaning is sound like this "Cinta dimulai dengan sebuah senyum dan berakhir dengan air mata kerana bahagia atau derita air mata tetap akan mengalir" its true when the 1st time i meet her,tears are the answer out from my eyes,im happy to see her for the 2nd time after im awaits fo r 3years,and tears is the answer too after we going to going far away from each other.
How about this ? "Kekasih terbaik adalah ketika kita duduk bersama di sebuah buaian tanpa ada ucapan.Namun ketika harus berpisah dengannya, terasa keadaan tersebut merupakan percakapan paling menyenangkan yang pernah dilakukan bersama" 
"Satu hal yang menyedihkan dalam hidup,ketika bertemu dengan seseorang,yang sangat bererti bagi kita,tetapi pada akhirnya seseorang tersebut tidak ditakdirkan untuk bersama kita, sehinggakan kita dengan berat hati membiarkan pergi dan berlalu" This is what we dowant to be,but this is the fate that someone choose for us,im go away from your life slowly..u ask me stop bothering you..ya now im moving slowly..the only step i done now is moving my msn account,i just not sampai hati to block and delete you,im not that kind of person.But nvm i take a nice way for you.. im moving,so u wont see my nick online anymore.
ku mengerti.. perpisahan ini..
bukan kerana kau membenci
tapi kasih yang pernah ku beri
tiada lagi bersama
sering kala aku terlihatkanmu
impian nan indah bersulam bahagia
ku harungi hari demi hari
bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali
tapi hati masih tak terima
ditinggalkan sengsara
keraguan ini.. bukanlah padamu
perasaan hati masih rindu
kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
tercari cari bayanganmu
tak sanggup aku kehilangan… mu
kehilanganmu..
keraguan ini .. bukanlah padamu
masih tercari-cari […]
p/s : just a crap from me,sorry im not perfect..please go away from me.
Posted by paopao at 1:39 PM
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Sunday, May 27, 2007
What is this weiiiiiiiiiiiii
Today Saturday, 26 of May 2007 im created new story of my life again,be drunken master for 2nd time in my life.Ivy club is the place to remember.Jack Daniel was the evil water moving the whole of my body.. stupid bloody malay rezza.Drinks and smoked,Dunhill light 1 box for me.I still dunno why,everything happen and whatever im doing...she is the 1 around my mind ? wtf is this.. how do i want to avoid it..kill my self isit ? ya i think that is the way..but im not that stupid to do that,i knew im drunk now.. i can feel so high,ah whatever..nobody will scold me,im in my own world..and the motive im typing this just for me to remembered again what was im doing on today..nomore happy life for me.Crap oh crap what im trying to do..i cannot thinking much,only her is on my mind that all.Everyday im trying to boost my own spirit by my own self..wake up wake up,but im falling back again for a minute..i think im going to botak my hair again, let the dye hair gone.I think im going to do that soon,if the part time job for hair show canceled..i wish im not selected.Just to remember back to my own self,2 more semesta to go...and how about after that? am i selected to join academy,r u think ur selected rezza? what do u think rezza.. r u good enough to be cadet rezza ? or im going to be sampah for 1 day ? which one is you rezza..dont disturb me, no one can change my mind and i wont listen to anyone except her..BTW WHAT IM TRYING TO DO NOW ? stupid fuck face rezza..IM THE EVIL OF MY SELF.. when am i going to be perfect so i cannot be wrong anymore to anybody in this world...oh i think nobody can be perfect in this world.. mean im going to be alone forever.
Posted by paopao at 6:52 AM
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Friday, May 25, 2007
051103 years
i want to party much as i can after away for 051103 years,the meaning deeply there and only me know what.Nowdays im crazy to shuffle and wannabe be the 1 of the good shuffler ,the reason just want to find something new in my life.Even its new and nice to make me happy,im here and my feeling still for someone i love,how far,how busy or what ever and how do it happen on me.. u still the one here deeply and special for me no one will changed it..my sayang to you will never end Patricia,i will always pray for your successful life and in a good life.I just can sayang u on my on way.Always take care yeah even u wont know what i feel and typing over here.
Oh i envy with the PHD shirt,godamnit i will buy 1 for me ;) ...my sayang Patricia,i miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu... can u hear that ? :(
Posted by paopao at 7:56 AM
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Thursday, May 24, 2007
Save us
For sure and i promise to my own self 1 day i will met her back for the applogize.We are born not to be together in this world,be happy on your own way and i just let it go..tears to say the truth, and its sound might be true..i dowant it to happen again and let be what i want to be,i dont need a kids,i dont need my own family created by my self,what i just want is my family and the future for the rest of my life for hope flying.Dear god please help me for this time,i dowant to be happy with anyone since its already happen for 22years of my life..give me the successful future to be alone and create my own way,and for sure dont forget about Allah,my parents,family and my own self..let her story closed here and i will save it.
there is only one happiness in life,to love and to be loved. o_O"
Posted by paopao at 10:15 AM
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Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Imhereifonlyyou'dcare
If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine
All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldnt love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine
And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine
You're all i need
My love, my valentine
Imhereifonlyyou'dcare
Posted by paopao at 7:51 AM
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Thursday, May 17, 2007
Oh so long and good night
Its being for so long i didnt sleep at nite,the only reason is killing my mind and disturb me when im alive is about someone,thinking her deeply without any respond.Im in my own world doing some shit and crap.Pretty long i miss to dream at night,but the answer is failed,while slept and wake up like a crazy dog..screaming with a sad feeling just for my feeling that dunno how to forget about her,eh world why i suppose to falling love? i dont think so its important if the feeling is keep like this and maybe i knew its something from Allah.i admit with the broken heart i need to be stronger enough to guide my ownself.Dont keep dreaming rezza if u want to keep your dream to be reality,wake up slowly and try your best,if 1 day i fall again.Please dont find me again..let me go in a peaceful life.To "night" i miss you,accompany with me again u.Ann's i will always remember the word here,i hope it will work..thanks for give me a support.Brokenheart is totally killing the whole of mylife and why this happen again even i dowant it happen.Dont ask about feeling if u cannot thinking twice.
FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYLIKEEEEEEEEEEEEEEABIRD OK! peaceful life needed,if any friends is around here,do add my ym at rezaytrzyrex and i wont on my msn anymore due to avoid my hurt feeling,im sad and tears to see someone i loved while online...goodbye sayang.
Posted by paopao at 6:58 AM
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Monday, May 14, 2007
"It is ME that chose to be a pilot, not YOU"
"I CAN GET THROUGH THIS" set to my mind, said Ann.Yeah i will do that so far so good,for my own good to see her again soon.Without any improvement in my life nobody will care and see me in the good way.Thanks once again to Ann for support and cheer me up,ur nice friend.Oh noooo today i saw her picture again, ftw i feeling so so so cair siol, damn.. she is so gorgeous and sweet, too bad not for me yet :( wuwuwu.. sad sad.Nah take this as challenge come on,i lost by 1 special thing in my life.. there still have 1 more to take it away and successfull it.Okay till now,dont to over confident to thinking much and dreaming much,do it and show it 1st,i want flyinglikeabirds ok!Friends im sorry again im down,i just cannot control my self.. but like what ann's said,without any step from me,there anything will change in my life.. nah I CAN GET THROUGH THIS!!! this is what i must do yeah,dont make any stupid retard things again,its wasted.Learning a goods things to make a change,heh final is coming yuhuuuu... and 2 more semesta to go,and back to the old plan,would i get a chance to get into the sweets place called Flying Academy? huh~ pray and hope much to god.Im coming im coming to you my loves aircraft and patricia :$ lol.Im in love with both of you since long time ago.
What a touching story when someone try to give me spirit last few years ago but now she is gone,its sound like this "You must never give up okay? Aih, life is always about facing constant problems...but hey, that's what life's all about right? But whenever we are feeling down, if we can keep a sense of humor about life, we would get through just about anything. And dun forget to try ur very best to always look on the brightside..." maybe my brightside of life will complete without you,i only can love u in my soul and illusion but not in real life,every words came from you it will be the end in my life,thanks for sweet memories..ur the one i will never forget until i die,god please dont change this in my mind,i dare to do this because i knew my own self character.Berkorban demi you and the one you choose,i will pray for your own good that u will always be happy with him forever.i will be happy to see your happynies
Ferhad - Pernah...