Saturday, January 13, 2007
DJ Mix,Special Feel = Cinta ?!
The Best picture Ever for me,Its Me and Patricia <3
I Love this old picture of you with your sister Felicia
Dj Mix,Green Apple Flavour!
Tired for swimming..but it fun,i wish 1 day i got my own swimming pool like azahar's house hehe..Dj Mix? lol sound like some Dj techno or trance rite ? btw its a cigaratte name..friend bought from langkawi.Its iced green apple flavour XD ..menthol rofl.Tomorow is the last paper for mid sem exam,i think im gonna get a bad result for this semesta,so hard to concentrate..everyday try my best,but something that happen to me still around of my mind..its my own mistake.
I need to be strong and stronger more..its the time to show to her soon.Last nite i dreamt about her,but the message is not really clear,but i still remember some..the message is sound like she try to make me jelous and go abit far from me,but i hope that was just a mainan tidur for me.I straight wake up and sad,wash my face and legs..try to slept back,but i cannot..sayang dont go far and leave me alone here.
I dunno she dowant this all things happen,but loves is too blind and too deep at all and im also the 1dowant any bad things happen btw urs,maybe this is just a trial to me to go more far for my future,nth much to do rite now.. i need to study smart as i can to get what i want soon.By the time i always still need someone behind me to cheer me up =/ im that person.. oh my im so bad :(
Back for a few days ago,memories my life and with my sayang..since i cannot online for quite long and today i want to type everything,my connection has been fixed by streamyx guy on last Wednesday.There is something funny,fun,happy,sad,touched and many more things happen with her.
1st memory happen on that Monday is she calling me in the morning to wake up me.Im too scared to faced that morning because it was a exam day.Im scared im gonna late and my preparation so little, and the nite around 5am before slept i send sms to her and she still here to help me.She called me for 3times, and i wake up answered her call.She told me to "wake up..u got exam today, dont be late" and i said ok,im so touched about that sayang.Thanks for that sayang if not comfrim i will be late or might be not wake up!My day become more happy..even my some of my friend can see that,coz i laugh and smile alot huh!
Around that afternoon, after i finished doing my exam.. i sms and wanted to see her because im really2 miss everything about her..and few minute after that i got reply,she was at KLCC and i thought she with her few friends,but not.. she was alone,i straight turn back from my way and go to KLCC with a happy heart :) ..xoxo i reach there 45minute after that,i meet her at the cinema,1st thing when i saw her is want to hug her, but it not could be :( ..im really2 miss her so much.. and i dunno when i can hug her back,i miss that sayang..the feel so deep.Not thah longer after we meet up, we go genki for lunch..its nice place to eat anyway,nice green tea made by you,wanted to ask more from u.. but im shy :$.Its remind me back when the 1st time we go mamam at Kenny Rogers,u feed a salad to me.. and i miss that,i wanted to do to you when that time we mamam together,but something still not ok and i still respect you,because ur someone gf.
Genki Sushi for our lunch and Cinta movie for chilling,touched..thanks for that sayang
The day was so pretty nice and beautiful with you sayang, whats next? ..we watched movie called "CINTA" and her fav. actor Sharifah Armani acting in that movie.She enjoy watching that movie, she laugh until 1 whole cinema can hear that...sayang did u know that ? but im smile to see when ur laugh :D mean ur enjoy watching.Until the sad and touched part,i want to hug you..i was touched too and cry.But i failed to do that to you again.Its the 1st time we watching movie together and u choose the awesome movie,and i was lucky to what that movie with you because i just mention to watch it a few day before.
The movie finish around 5 something, and we straight go back.. wow the road is quite pack,we stuck but not that longer.I reach Jasmine Tower around 6 something and i straight going to rounding at ss2 for eating.But failed, pack with cars and peoples..there is pasar malam nite lah! haha.. u turn and go to Daroos Uptown,chill a while there and eating capati, some of my fav food ^^.I get shocked when i received sms from you again sayang, that u want to yumchar with me and wifi together..the day become more happy and my heart follow happy,sayang.But she wanted me to wait her a while for dinner at home with mum.She is nice daughther,and she is too perfect for me.Im sorry to hurt u.
Starbucks,Center Point was our next sweet destination for yumchar and wifi.Oh god she tied her hair, she look cute and fresh.I told her she is cute,but seem like she didnt hear that because something was happen around there.Sayang i hope u read my blog soon,that night was raining..we wanted to Wifi at Mcd since she dream to eat Strawbery Milk Shake,but the cashier said "tarak" lol :( ..and she asking me, i want anything.. then im said.. har "u know what?" she still remember my fav food my McD.. Apple Pie T_T ,sayang thanks for that Apple Pie..we back to our plan to chilling at starbucks,we odered Mocha with milk and sit at the midle of corner.She on the laptop for Wifi and surfing everything and mostly her msn and hotmail.I was away for a while to toilet and finding some shop for flower,wanted to buy it before i fetch her.. but rounding all over Damansara Utama and Uptown no shop selling a flower and i give up.But lucky god,around the CenterPoint selling cute and small flower,3 stalks of red roses that meaning I LOVE YOU!,i back to the place from behind and try to supprise her,and im too bad didnt mention to her why i give her the flowers.I hope u know the meaning sayang.Im sorry didnt tell u that sayang,i will do that next time again,i will make u to trust and confident me back..i wont give up to show my True Love to you,because i really2 mean it!She continue back to surfing,and she mention to me that she trying to send her tshirt design to lecturer,but no respond and next busy with chatting and keep asking me wether im boring or not,i wont boring with you sayang,i want to spend all my life with u and be mine forever :( ..but there i know,am i as a boy i need to find a better job for my future girl,to make her proud,confident and trust alot to me..i will slowly moving to be all that just for my sayang and my family.Pray and wish me good luck about that.Back to the story..she enjoying talking with her friends, since quite long didnt online.. sayang,i wish we can always be together like that,this time i will bring my own laptop to kacau u :P ..for an hour we was there,and suddenly her bf ws online.. and u appear offline,i saw everything.. im sorry if i bother u at this time,din mention in my heart to do that so.I know u want to do some happy things with him, but i was there..im so sorry.In the middle of chatting with all of her friends,she told me something about her cousin,but she didnt too close with him..talking about your dad picture rite,she spend alot of chatting time with Jas and lixin.A while then,i wanted to hear some song and back to my car.Wow she just bought a new ipod,its nice.The 1st song was i singing for her is collide,that song left some memories about urs,do u still remember that ?i couldnt believe that i can sing that song and just for u >.< ..and that is my 1st time singing song for people,and i feel sweet im singing for the person that i LOVE,Goh Mui Yit.Thanks for your apple pie,i ate as my breakfast :)
Time jelous with urs,she need to go back.The next day was her 1st day for college after break for 1month,and me too for exam.But i feel we just sat there for quite a while.Sayang i want to chilling with u again for so long as we can.But i would to say thanks alot to spend a time with me,u make my day fully with a nice history and until today and forever i wont forget everything and i dowan to forget it.Ur too perfect for me!..Hmm we leaving from Starbucks to carpark,and when that time we walking at the stairs,i wish i can hold your hand,scared u will falling down since your sandal always make u to do that :( but i still got no chance to do that..the time still not for me.Oh shit we still cannot go out because havent settle the ticket >.< ..the parking is free,but need to scan 1st from the machine..a while im going to the tiket place,she was at the car.. and im too worried to leave u there,after i back..i saw u was sleeping,sorry to make u wait until sleepy...i can see your tired face,eee at last i can see how sweet your face when ur sleeping,but i got no chance to snap picture.. grrrrr!
A few minute then we reached Jasmine Tower, and i start to talking something about urs again,its kinda hard for me to forget everything.Im sorry if i make u sad again..im too weak after thinking back,what i want is you always or sometimes be at my side to listen to my story.Until when we talked at one part of urs last time,and she makes me sad and hurt so much at the time,air mata ku terus menitik..when she said she cannot guarantee that i will come back to her again,she lost the trust..but why im the one here always can keep believe and trusting in everything.Isit im too stupid,i think im not..because of my nature.Im trusted you alot sayang,did u know that last time im fighting with my friends because of you,they said im just a stupid and bullshit people who trust love from the internet.But the meaning trust there make me believe that ur really2 love me,i wont care what people gonna talk about me..Im hurt so much.
*1617PM*
Today is the day my parents went back from Makkah,too bad i didnt celebrate them at KLIA.Wanted to go,but i was dumb..brain fully with bad things.Im sorry Ayah and Mama make both of them sad,i didnt mean it at all.Rezza u should wake up faster to go on with your dream,Yes im doing that..but i always down at the moment.Even today im done my last paper for exam,but i feel im gonna failed all papers i guess,since i cannot concentrate at all.Im crying at the hall.Finished all the question that what i can do and straight went back for sleep.Im scared to sleep last time,scared to go on with a bad dream.But im wrong,at last in the afternoon i slept..and i dreamt something bad again,its about Patricia and Clax.The message is something like both of them is happy together,and im who the one there admire Patricia again and again.Until the one part,i was fighting with her bf.. but at last i was mengalah to him, at let them go.Ya Allah,whats the message trying to send to me ?isit something bad or good soon.
To complete my day,i would like to say thanks you very very the much to my Love Goh Mui Yit,Patricia for spend a time with me again,1 day with who will give me a great history in my life.Im sorry again if hurt you.Sayang i will always try my best to be storger and more to go on with my life.Thanks for the advice and spirit..but im very sure i will make u trust,confident and proud of me.Hopefully it work for you to be happy back with me because im rite here still waiting about you."Ya Allah,kuatkan lah semangat hamba mu ini untuk mencapai cita-citanya dan kekalkan la persahabatan kami hingga ke akhir hanyat jikalau dia benar-benar untuk hidup ku ini,hamba mu ini yang amat lemah mengharap pertolongan daripada kerana hanya engkau sahaja seorang yang dapat membantu ku,selain daripada jawapan dari isi hati dan akal fikirannya"
The End,I Love My PILOT and PATRICIA FOREVER!
Letter from her,long time ago and Dvd from her
p/s : broken english was detected,wanted to mixed up songs,but i cannot open youtube.com webby -.- history and memories for my live ever!